Hara Mizuki announced her graduation yesterday. “Who is she?” I asked. It turns out she was a 1st gen who was stuck in research student status and hardly ever appeared.
The actual G+ post by Hara Mizuki is pretty sad. I’ll get to that later. But here’s an amazing response by Yamamoto Sayaka that offers insight into both Mizuki’s character as well as Sayaka’s.
Sure, from the beginning when I entered NMB, I was captain and received the spotlight.
But that’s how it went with NMB.
I also have a past.
I don’t want to leave without saying anything, so I just want to say a little here.
Before I was in NMB I was doing activities as a band.
We hit the road as performed live, and sold CDs and things like that.
Even though we performed concerts there were days when we had only 2 fans in the audience.
Finally, the recording company said, “Write 10 songs in a week and come back. If you can’t do it, we can’t use you guys.”
And that was the end of us.
I was a middle school student and I hit an enormous wall on the way to my dream.
“Even then, even then, I want to sing, I want to perform music.”
With this determination I am able to be here today.
I feel like the many years before, the things that pile up, little by little, they will come to fruition.
I feel that Mizuki, Aapon and Arii, have the same opinion.
But if they’re not here, it’s stressful.
Working hard to be an undergirl is just one duty, but I also saw the care they gave to the younger members.
That’s why there’s no need to not be thankful towards Mizuki, Aapon, and Arii.
We might say strict things, but there are real thankful feelings from the team members towards the kenkyuusei.
I might not be able to persuade them.
But, I want them to understand.
I’m sorry that this was so long.
With what I’ve been reading in Complete Book, with the scandals and a lot of the revelations in G+, NMB48 isn’t the rosy picture that idol world is often painted to be. I really like being their fan because I like how they’ve dealt with all the struggles (for the most part, the Kaito stuff is still a mess). Still, they’re very real people who struggle to find what they need to accomplish.
And while idols are idols, it also reflects on me. I never pegged myself as the fan who just goes “Yay boobs and young girls” but more like a person that is struggling to find his own identity in this world and looking for answers through media and entertainment.
The story of Hara Mizuki is a very painful one and one that I’ll reflect on later, so please look forward to it.